Life at Rio Grande

Again I have over done myself this year. I have gotten too involved in clubs and organizations. As I am in  10 clubs and organization. A few which i hold an officer or chair. As I came back to Rio this year, I guess i had hoped for a good year, surrounded by great and true friends. As the year went on, as mentioned before "Find out who your friends are" is so true, Best friends come and go, but True Friends stick around. As I have learned your don't always need to call one a best friend, but a true friend, the friend who is truly there for you. This has no one meaning, or toward any person. Just something i have learned over this past semester. This year things have changed, which change is good, and i cannot judge or make things that way I want them to be. I guess I had hoped for this to be the semester where it would be fun, great friends, and just around a good time. Change occurs for reasons unknown, for us to discover who we are, and what we may do with in our own way of life. One thing about myself I have learned, no matter how pissed/upset/mad I get, I still hate to fight, and will not truly tell one how I feel. As I will still be a good and true friend, and be supportive, and be the one who will be there for one, when one ask upon me to help. As I try my best to be the best person I can, and I am not always the best at that, but for me, the meaning of being a true friend to someone, is what brings me my happiness in my life. As I dont ask for much, or say much, doesn't mean I don't need someone to be there for me, to include me, or just simply ask. As the year has gone on, I have hiddened a lot of my feelings, to the point of where I was freshmen year, the place where i dont want to be again. I am trying so hard to keep myself from this.

Jason

The outcome of this week, has been great. We, as in Student Planning Board have gotten a lot more people involved, giving people something to do, and something to look forward. Monday and Tuesday night we had prolly 25 to 35 people in the red zone. Wednesday night, we had about 40 people playing capture the flag with a few people watching, and what not, that is the most activities we have seen it a while. Thusday was fun, but sore, an outdoor slip n' slide, about 25 people came out and had a good time. friday night was the cookout, for being a 3 day weekend, and a friday night, we still had a good turnout. This week has been a good week in those aspects.

On a personal note, well I owe a few people a huge thank you for everything this week, for all the help. This has been a very rough week for me, esp when it comes to talking with friends, and learning who true friends are. I just will not share my opinion, or tell you why I am upset. I just want to be that true friend, and be there for you, and give that support, its not about me, nor does it need to be. theres just a lot running around my head right now, i am not mad at anyone, just a bit upset with a few people.

Thank you to everyone who has been a big help this week. Phil, Toby, Zach, Sara, and Sara and all of the admissions office, and Eric.

Well, Well, Well. Its been a very long weekend, and a week ahead...This will be a good year, a lot more student involvement. I am pretty pumped about this year, I just need to learn to handel stress much better and to control myself, and be more postive about what is around me.

Well, on a second note, Find out who your friends are....how true is that song? so true for me. The last few days really have made me realized how good of a friend i am too others, but also what kind of a friend some people are to me.

Classes tomorrow. Yay 8:30....lol

Its been a while, and I always say that, and everything i seem to say is always the same, and the same problems.

I am just not happy anymore, I keep trying to be there for everyone, and everything. I have spread myself out to far, and its hard to back down or say no. I finally feel as if I am making a different in peoples lives around me, a feeling I have not had since i have been a Rio.

The last few days since being back, I was excited to be back, old friends and best friends. But come to find out, everyone has changed, change is good,

But to be honest, I cannot handle this again, I understand its not about me. But friendships matter to me, and I know I cannot say anything or voice my opinion. I have 5 close friend/best friends at rio. 3 of them have transfered out, one to Shawnee and two to hocking. I just cannot lose another best friend right now, not the same way i did after freshmen year.

The best friend I did lose my freshmen year, we are starting to talk more, its nice, but its hard on me, and really weird, because things will not be the same. You can always have more then one best friend, a lesson that has taken me a while to learn.

Things back home are a complete mess right now, friends back home, i am just never sure, and i am trying to understand, and when i think i do, things all change...I am just not sure what to do anymore...I am just trying to be there and listen.

I have no personal life anymore, i need one, its always business and not just fun...i am always grumpy as it seems to most, or business. I need to get out of that, and enjoy life, and not stress myself to death.

Transfering? Well, Rio is getting better slowly, but I don't know how well i am helping, or evening if i am making a difference. Its so hard for me right now. Rio is getting so costly...and my happiness is wearing thin. I can transfer after this semester, three choices, Shawnee state is my number one, Akron is two, and WVU is three. I think this will be my last year at rio, unless I can get an RA job for next year, that will be the main choice.

so what is so special about your 21st? the fact that you get to buy beer? the fact that everyone else is spoes to remember what happened on that night, and tell you stories about it...well, i guess i will always remember mine as one of the worst birthday i've had.

I am just really upset about this weekend...its just kills me actually...sunday was just as bad as saturday...I was spoes to go out with a few friends sunday who could not go saturday, and just get something to eat or hit up a movie...well guess what didn't happened...no one called me, and i tried to get a hold of people, and when they got back to rio, no one called me....so yet again...another day passes, and no one makes an effort. still pissed a few people, and i try not be selfish, and i don't think i am, i will give and do what i can for others before i do for myself....but the one time i wanted to be happy, and cared about myself, everyone else let me down...I just wanted to happy, and to enjoy this birthday.